I was looking at the blog today reading over some of my old posts and thinking to myself, “I actually wrote this?” In all honesty when I write I get in this zone, and my fingers type so fast that I forget half of what I’ve written. I call it the Holy Spirit! Ha! People that know me well know that I am not capable of writing what I do on my own.
I often sit and think about why in the world God chose me to use the way He does. I am normal just like everyone else. I tell myself things like, “I am not called to do great things” or “I’m just an ordinary girl, raised in a small town, where no one knows my name” or “I didn’t go to the local public school, I don’t fit into all the popular cliques” or “even though I’ve tried to be at times, I’m not the most popular person.” These are all thoughts that used to run through my head on a daily basis. I wrestled with why God had picked me. I thought maybe it was just a phase. I would tell myself that obviously what I had dreamed about my whole life wouldn’t happen. I mean I made a CD and nothing happened. Or so I thought.
You see, the Devil, as I have stated many times in other posts, has a way of making us believe this lie. We should know from the Bible that if he is speaking then he is lying. I mean, the Bible even refers to him as “the father of all lies.” So why do we fall into the trap of believing what he is saying so many times? We often believe what the devil is saying over us more than what God says over us.
I remember when I realized this that it was like the doors of this cage that I was trapped in blew wide open, and I finally saw the light. We HAVE to stop letting the devil get inside our minds and convince us that the dream, promises, visions, and desires God has given us are untrue.
Another change we need to make is to stop being so hard on ourselves! This is a HUGE thing for me! I used to talk so badly about myself, and I had to learn to quit that!
I had to begin declaring the things God said about me over myself because if I didn’t, who would? I began to declare theses scriptures over my life:
“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”
“Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee.”
“So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.”
“Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil, for thou art with me, thy rod and staff they comfort me.”
(Psalm 23 is just a good chapter to quote, period)
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose.”
It is SO important the words that you say! God has taught me so much in this last year about the words I say. Speak life over yourself!
I know it can be hard, and it’s a conscious decision, but I’m telling you it’s worth it! I encourage you, if you pay attention to anything I say, please pay attention to this! Change your routine. On your way to work turn on Christian music. In your house, at your job, wherever you are, turn on something positive and upbeat.
Things will begin to change!
Now, after all this time I still slip up, but I make a daily effort to speak life over myself. I don’t say the things I used to. Now I say things like
The dreams God has given me will come to pass.
God has chosen me to do great things.
I am a mighty warrior, ready for battle.
I am fearless, strong, and brave.
I am relentless with a heart after the King.
And remember before when I said I thought when I made my CD that nothing came of it? Well, that was yet another lie from the enemy. God has used that CD with HIS songs to touch the hearts of people I don’t even know. Just a few weeks ago my mom got a message from someone I didn’t even know who had the CD and she told my mom that it made her husband cry, and he never cries.
I don’t say this to brag on me or to get you to buy a CD. I say this to show you that if you live with a heart after God, you will be amazed at what He can do with your life. Run after God with everything you have and if you mess up, (I’m going to get in trouble for saying this, but who cares!) let it go. Jesus didn’t die on the cross so we could live in guilt and shame.
He died so we could be called children. The chosen and the free. Period.
“…perhaps you were born for such a time as this.”